These days, I'm all about being compassionate with myself. And honest. That is the hard one isn't it friends? To really be honest, not only with yourself, but, with others especially. To have that accountability is really humbling and terrifying. In contemplating the possibility of having roomate(s) in the future, I have to be super honest about how much time I spend not being productive. Honestly, it goes way beyond self-care. It is downright avoidant and I've been doing it in one form or another for so long, it seems nearly impossible to shed all of the escapist and avoidant behaviors. Still, I'm determined. I will conquer these character defects and bad habits so that I can be the best me and live the life I dream and envision. That is my goal. The rest is only details.
Right now, I'm working on a painting that is probably the most detailed and involved thing I've done to date. It is taking me a long time but I'm determined to finish, and make it something I'm proud of. Well, I'm already proud of it. I'm so excited about getting it completed and share it with you all.
Here's the last painting I did. I really love the dynamic feel it has. It is still hanging on my studio wall. I left it there to contemplate if it was finished. I had gotten hyper-focused on one area that I struggled with. Since then, I grin every time I get even a glance at it. I don't even notice the spot that once captured all my attention. It is the first, hopefully of many, of Forida subject matter that I've done since moving here in January. It is a common hedge used in many commercial landscapes here. The flowers in real life are only about a centimeter or so. Barely noticeable as you are walking by. Of course, I'm the nerd that likes to get my camera (my phone) right up in the bushes/grass/at sidewalk level/whatever it takes to get a good image of the thing that catches my eye.
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